The leaves are starting to fall now, and it's getting damp and cold more often. Autumn has always been heartrendingly beautiful for me. Hmmm, I think we need a little background music here...
Okay that's good. Sitting inside as a light rain falls, looking thru the glass doors, slight sway to the oranges and yellows of the trees.Yea, that's good, that's good.
This is the week where I had to make the choice between food or meds.
It's a good thing I have the beauty of yellowgreenorange trees and falling leaves to distract me. Still, that only works for a few minutes or so.
I didn't eat much last night - I was just too damn tired after I got home from work. Dinner consisted of a can of honey roasted peanuts.
Things are not going well.
Outside it gets a little brighter and I see a swirl of orange billowing towards the ground. A moment of serenity before the waves of dry nausea wrack thru me again.
A moment of quiet - so nice. Last night the Highway department had one of their klieg like lights fifty feet away so all I heard all night was the generator's wail, beeping, sweeping machines, and traffic. My doctor gave me samples of a sleep med to replace my usual doses of trazodone until I can afford them again on payday. The replacement's commercial is the one with the friggin' flitting fritillary - and it doesn't do a damn bit of good.
There are some laughs to be had on tv. The election jokesters are distracting us from something again.
I just went looking for a better version of a graphic I have which I want to insert here:
Leviticus 20:6 And the soul that turneth after such as have familiar spirits, and after wizards, to go a whoring after them, I will even set my face against that soul, and will cut him off from among his people.