Thursday, October 21, 2010

Falling leaves and the Demons of stupidty

The leaves are starting to fall now, and it's getting damp and cold more often. Autumn has always been heartrendingly beautiful for me. Hmmm, I think we need a little background music here...

Okay that's good. Sitting inside as a light rain falls, looking thru the glass doors, slight sway to the oranges and yellows of the trees.Yea, that's good, that's good.

This is the week where I had to make the choice between food or meds.
It's a good thing I have the beauty of yellowgreenorange trees and falling leaves to distract me. Still, that only works for a few minutes or so.

I didn't eat much last night - I was just too damn tired after I got home from work. Dinner consisted of a can of honey roasted peanuts.

Things are not going well.

Outside it gets a little brighter and I see a swirl of orange billowing towards the ground. A moment of serenity before the waves of dry nausea wrack thru me again.

A moment of quiet - so nice. Last night the Highway department had one of their klieg like lights fifty feet away so all I heard all night was the generator's wail, beeping, sweeping machines, and traffic. My doctor gave me samples of a sleep med to replace my usual doses of trazodone until I can afford them again on payday. The replacement's commercial is the one with the friggin' flitting fritillary - and it doesn't do a damn bit of good.

There are some laughs to be had on tv. The election jokesters are distracting us from something again.

I just went looking for a better version of a graphic I have which I want to insert here:

Underneath of it was this:

Leviticus 20:6 And the soul that turneth after such as have familiar spirits, and after wizards, to go a whoring after them, I will even set my face against that soul, and will cut him off from among his people.

Oh, well.